2020 was a shitshow but I think our relationship is in a good place. Reading my past post about “dapat alam mo na dapat yan” naiintindihan ko naman na kung bakit nasasabi mo yun. I know I haven’t been the perfect partner but I’m trying. Now that we’re not focused on internal problems, as usual, …
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A letter to my narc wife
I have to let this out. Mabigat dalhin. I think I’m a narcissist. I know I’m married to one too. We deserve each other ‘ika nga nila. We make no mistakes, it’s everybody else’s fault. Ayos na mentality pag external ang problema. Pag may challenges mula sa ibang tao pero paano na pag tayong nagaaway? …
I’m messed up
Some background: My friend is a cancer survivor. We kinda thought he won’t survive and we’re very happy that he did survive. That was around 15 years ago. Naging “normal” na ulit na nakakausap siya and parang nawala yung thought na cancer survivor nga siya. Recently, may medical problems ulit siya and, hindi ako sigurado, …
3rd Law
I think I have a problem with being codependent. Inisip ko dati na basta mapasaya ko siya masaya na rin ako. Sumobra naman yata. Hindi ko na alam ngayon kung anong magpapasaya sakin dahil basta masaya siya iniisip ko masaya na rin ako. Ano na ngayon? Ano nga bang magpapasaya sakin? Hindi ko yata ever …
good fat, bad fat
I’m trying to lose weight. I’ve been doing intermittent fasting for 5 weeks now. 16hours fasting, 8 hour window to eat. eat normal, healthy meals. hindi kakain para “bumawi” and guess what?! mataas pala cholesterol ko. 300, ang normal yata ay 100 lang maximum. my body is breaking down. kalabaw lang ang hindi tumatanda, sabi …
i’m not creative
I’m not creative. kung may magsabi na nakasalalay ang buhay ko sa pagcome up sa isang creative na idea baka tanggapin ko nalang na mamamatay na ko. I’ve always taken pride sa kapansanan kong ito. insecurity siguro, ego, yabang. ipagyayabang ko nalang na ganoon ako kaysa ayusin. i admire creative people. lagi ako nakikinig ng …
Whetstone 